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First thoughts...
Dec. 28th, 2025 10:12 pmI'm not sure how it happened... but it did. I never thought anything more than friendship would be possible. She expressed feelings for me, and I was elated. I expressed similar feelings back.
Since that, two days ago? There's been distance. She's not been on as much as she was before.
And thanks to my neurodivergent brain... all I can think... is that I screwed up. I know it isn't logical to think that, but then again, feelings aren't logical.
She have a partner. I have a partner. I'm admittedly open and poly. To my knowledge, she isn't. It's the first time in a long time that a female has shown any interest in me in a long time. The worst part? She's in Canada... and I'm in the US.
But, I have felt worried for the last couple of days. But, as usual, I'm scared to vocalize it (like I was with my feelings for them) for fear of rejection.
*sigh* Oh well...
Hopefully the next time I use this won't be so melancholy.
Since that, two days ago? There's been distance. She's not been on as much as she was before.
And thanks to my neurodivergent brain... all I can think... is that I screwed up. I know it isn't logical to think that, but then again, feelings aren't logical.
She have a partner. I have a partner. I'm admittedly open and poly. To my knowledge, she isn't. It's the first time in a long time that a female has shown any interest in me in a long time. The worst part? She's in Canada... and I'm in the US.
But, I have felt worried for the last couple of days. But, as usual, I'm scared to vocalize it (like I was with my feelings for them) for fear of rejection.
*sigh* Oh well...
Hopefully the next time I use this won't be so melancholy.
